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NGAAAAARSS, Akin kaaaah! Ellen da Bampira.

Scary woman.

Anyhoo, welcome back to my joint, my loyal customers. It has been a verrry long time since I posted something substantial in this spot. To start off, I’d like to say that it feels great to finally log my life updates on this online diary (blech.). So what’s been happening to me for the past three months? Let’s see,

  1. January. At the back of my head: For the past four years, I’ve been working a whole lot and haven’t earned mounds of cash BUT I’m still happy.
  2. February. At the back of my head: For the past four years, I’ve been working a whole lot and haven’t earned mounds of cash BUT I’m quite happy. I am happy because of the opportunities to learn more, the prestige of working in the number one car company in this country, and the chance to travel around the country. I was also happy to watch the whole series of…

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  3. March. I wake up and something shouts inside my head with ringing clarity: For the past four years, I’ve been working a whole lot and haven’t earned mounds of cash AND I’m no longer happy.

I am tired.

I am tired of complaining. I am tired of waiting for miracles and empty promises. I am tired of hearing grumblings from my workmates. I am tired of the bureaucracy and red tape. I am tired of hearing misguided views of fairness and loyalty. I am tired of wasting time making some Chinese guy rich. I am tired.

And most of all, I am angry.

I am angry at myself for letting these things to happen to me. I could have just left earlier and sought better opportunities. Don’t get me wrong. In every company, there would be different sets of problems. I am grateful for my current job but I know deep in my heart that I do not see myself doing this for the next five years.

I am tired and I need a new job.

Badly.